DON'T MAKE ME WISH I DIDN'T


November 6, 2020 1:43 a.m. It was an Omar Apollo song that made me feel it. "Don't make me wish I didn't." I stopped talking about him. I don't really think about him. I've stared at the work and begged to feel something, to miss him. To miss him makes me think about the person I was when I was with him and I'm angry at her. It's like damn Ciarra....why'd you settle? Why didn't you feel like you could say no thank you, cause you knew you deserved better than what he was half-ass offering. The half-ass men I always picked. It's embarrassing. It's disappointing and I wish that I didn't look at myself as a burden and appreciate what I always bring to the table... I didn't deserve that. It may have nothing to do with me and everything to do with him, but again, I can't believe I settled and watch him treat me like that. It's embarrassing. It's disappointing. He really made wish I didn't...