July 11, 2019 4:31 p.m. I’ve learned that feelings are temporary and I question whether they matter or not. The only consistent thing in life is change. It’s July and I wonder what I feel.... Life has been coming at me fast and I keep looking for space to feel it all. When I find the space, I run away. Or maybe I really don’t have the space to deal with it all. Between my family, friendships, money, and art...when and where do you find the focus? It’s been a week since I saw ___’s face and I woke up feeling weird again. He was in my dream last night.

I attracted exactly what I was and now meeting ___ puts things into a real perspective. I like men with question marks. I like when I have to question how they feel. ___ told me time and time again how much he liked me. How tight I was, how cool I was, how talented I was. Yet, I still questioned how he felt about me. So what does that say about him? What does that say about me?